Thoughs on then day thus far

I know its too early to really judge the day but i just met up with a friend from last year. It was just awkward, she looked like hell but i couldn't say anything since it was almost since months since any sort of contact between us. 

I think this day is about to go into the dumper. just saying. I will write again tonight. 

The Social Networking Addcition

I no longer have an addiction, I will have few withdrawals and in the long run i will be a happier person. I am getting rid of the social norm of my generation...to have a facebook profile, or a myspace (which i detest mind you). I do in fact still have a twitter account but its a little less known and I dont really ever use it.
    Many people either cant understand why or they dont really believe me. well get this as of next week I will be facebook free! I am going to try and meet more people face to face and stop just having friends that i talk to online. Too often I just sit at home and wait for people to log on to facebook so i can distract them with a conversation. Not only is it a distraction for them its a distraction for me. If everything pans out the way my advisor and i have planned out I could potentially be student teaching next spring and then a job in the fall! thats my main goal, and I need to cut down on m distractions in order to make that happen.
     To my friends that really have no other way of talking to me, I apologize we will have to find another way to communicate. I truly do enjoy talking to all of my friends but I want to enjoy talking to you in person, and see your face. I dont know maybe thats too much to ask, but I am demanding I will admit that.
     To my friends who ask about my funny posts and my little courage wolf posts, guess what?! Those posts are my personality!! I know crazy right? my status updates, would actually be said to one another if we actually hung out, and as far as courage wolf....really people?....its just an app on facebook. Im just one who regularly used it for everyone to see. and most of them are fucking crude, so really its not as funny as everyone thinks, I filter pretty them before i post them.

New year, new me. Thats my motto this year and im standing by that. So here's to breaking the habit and going against my generation.

Thoughts on Life and Sundries such as That.

As this year comes to a close I stop to ponder what has happened this year. As it naturally happens i really dont remember what happened at the beginning of the year but i wasnt in a good place. I wasnt making the best decisions and generally i think my health was declining as well. Summer hit and i had to move back home and that was a blessing and a curse, but i will talk about that later. i made it through summer and actually saved some money and startred to get back on my feet. School started and well I was prepared in a sense to face the challenges of academia. As the year progressed i found myself going further and further into solitude, this wasnt exactly my choice but i found that i was and still am comfortable with my choice. it has made me be more of an independent person and comfortable with who i am.
    Some of my friends noticed this and tried to bring me out of my solitude and try and get me to be more social. It worked for a while but i found that i wasnt really being true to who i was and what i wanted out of life. So back i went into my solitude. I have lost a few friends over it, or so it feels as though i have lost them.
    I think that by being alone a lot of my time i have found that its a waste of time to tell little white lies to get by, to be socially acceptable. Why would i want to be that when our society it mostly dishonest? not that i am saying that everyone is dishonest all of the time or at all. I am making one of my resolutions to be honest this year.
    Also a few friends have come back into my life that i value greatly, one in particular has made a difference in my outlook on life. I got to know her almost two years ago and then she had to leave moscow and go back home but i never forgot about her. She entered back into my life recently and it hasnt been the same. she will never truly understand how much she has impacted my life and I am grateful that she has graced me with her presence. I cant express how much she means to me.
    So what have i learned you might ask...Well I have learned that i am an individual, with my own ideas and thoughts. I can make my own decisions and wont let anyone stand in my way of getting closer to me dreams. I also have learned how to be on my own and how to be comfortable with being alone.


Until Tomorrow

Why i want to teach chem

As my title states here is my first blog.

before i sat down to actually write this i had all of these ideas and what i could write about and i figured it was going to be a piece of cake, well i must say that it is not as simple as one thought. 

Let me introduce myself a little bit before i get to the nitty gritty stuff. My name is Andrew for starters, I am a student working on becoming a high school chemistry teacher. Why you might ask?(dont worry most people do) and my answer is this...I love chem, its hard as hell but its awesome. I love the feeling of seeing a really cool experiment and knowing what is going on in that reaction. I also want to be able to have my students realize that chem isnt a bad thing to know. its not scary, its not that hard, it just takes time and practice to learn and really know how to do it. Thats why i want to teach chemistry. So this is pretty cheesy but my mentor teacher has a motto that i think fits pretty well when it come to chemistry: chem.is.try....get it? good.